aggal73

ok so here is what is going on with me lately…

ALLERGIES, ALLERGIES and MORE ALLERGIES…I feel like crap all of the time but it is only for a season but it seems to be forever.  I am trying to get the energy to exercise, although with the force that I sneeze that could almost be considered crunches…

On the work front things are looking up.  No discrimination found in the complaint about my boss, so that is good.  The boss still feels like crap because she is still being scrutinized under a microscope and that sucks, but a little birdie told me yesterday that the troublemaker coworker who made up these stories will not be with us much longer.  She is going to be transferred to another division and I am doing the happy dance…I will get her job with a few modifications of things I currently do now and want to keep since I have cleaned them up.  I will get her office (sweet)…I miss having an office…..unfortunately I dont think anymore money is in it for me right now, however ,there will be the period between her move and the new person becoming proficient that I will get OT….(I hope)….

 Sorry I have not been around much lately, I have not felt like I have much to say, I have been reading in spurts…I just have not been the same lately and I don’t know why.  I do not have a computer at home anymore until I can get some internet….and that is going to have to come somewhere after the dental work I need done….sooo I hope all of my buddies are doing well and don’t think because you don’t see me alot that I am not here supporting you….

well, i weighed in at WW today for my last “do over” ….i cant keep tossing money out the window just to maintain….or not gain….I lost 2.8 pounds.  I am kinda bummed because I will not get to weigh in next saturday because I have a loser class to go to….(i wrote 1, yes ONE check that bounced and somehow slipped through the cracks….$50.00…and it got turned over to the county attorney, so now I have to take an 8 hour financial responsibility class…this could possible be worse than defensive driving (at least they have those on the internet)…)….but I followed up and went to the gym after WW and I am planning on getting this done. 

Well, at this very moment I am blogging instead of going to the multiple offices with food for going away parties.  Being the last day of the month sometimes we have multiple “quitters” on this day.  So we have two offices full of food that I have been invited to.  I went to one and I have 1/2 a donut.  My fav kind…..I am glad I was able to adhere to that…..Mary Beth also made brownies which are my favorite, and I passed them up.  I have no plans to visit the second office. 

 On the other hand, I feel like crap…..Allergies this time of year always get to me.  I will be okay once I get “used” to it again, but the first wave always hits me hard. 

I am not a very religious person (most of the time)…I keep my faith between me and God, but please pray for all of those folks having financial issues right now, whether caused by the economy or not.  It seems to be hitting me right now, I don’t know if it is because I feel bad or what, but I know several people with problems right now and I just wish I could help them out. 

I just saw a picture of myself from our last recruiting trip and OMG….seriously….I can only think of one other picture or two that I have been that horrified with…..If I can get it from my boss I will…I have got to get this thing in gear!

I have been feeling disconnected lately, I don’t know why.  I have to make an effort to connect with friends family etc….I don’t know if it is because I am exhausted or if because I am so disappointed with myself for the weight I have put on and not been able to get off.  I finally caught up with a friend of mine that I hadn’t seen in months until here lately.  It felt good and I missed her.  I just don’t know why I do it….

and now I have done it here on BS, I have distanced myself by giving up the Diamonds.  I don’t hear from most of my fellow team mates anymore and it makes me sad, I know it is part my fault for doing the distancing thing.  I have joined the Wildcats, but I don’t know what my problem is, I still haven’t put my full effort into that either.

 I will get through this I know it…I know it is a bit of a whiny blog, but just felt the need to write it anyway…

life has been crazy….this is our busy time of year.  I have been traveling and not really been computer accessible.  Last week we went to georgia and san francisco and this week we went to A&M and I am just TIRED OUT.  I am going to start exercising again as the weather outside is starting to cool down and the eating is on the mend.  After 1.5 weeks of eating out, I never want to see fast food again.  I think I made decent choices.  I only gained 2 pounds…So I am off and running again.  Just wanted to drop in and say hi….

Miss you all!

I really wonder sometimes.  I continue to buy junk, I continue to eat junk…and keep telling myself tomorrow will be better.  When is it really going to be tomorrow.  I think I am just whiny and pitiful because I was sick this week.  But I looked at myself in the mirror and I just felt like a glob.  So what is it going to take?  I was laid up in bed in extreme pain…for two days…some kind of gas/intestinal thing.  Is that enough or will it blow out of memory just as quickly as it came and I go back to my old habits….

well…the weekend is almost over (i have an extra day tomorrow)….so far..nothing to great on the food front.  I escaped town and went to mom’s and I did the best I could….I didnt gain any weight but I did not excercies and I did not make healthy choices….It will probably show up in the coming days/week….but it was so good to get away to the country for a while….and boy did my dog have a blast!

Wow, I seem to be on a roll with the blogging here lately….Ok, so here is my challenge…I want to see how long I can go without refined sugar.  This is my first challenge to myself.  As soon as I feel I have tackled that one, I am going to attack the next one!  I am counting on all of my buddies to help me in this.  I am bad about picking up crap in my bosses office or a donut or something….So I wonder how long I can do it….

I should have gone to the grocery store last night….I didn’t and as a result of that I had a Sonic toaster sandwich this morning…not dwelling on it…counting it in my points and moving on…