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I just saw a picture of myself from our last recruiting trip and OMG….seriously….I can only think of one other picture or two that I have been that horrified with…..If I can get it from my boss I will…I have got to get this thing in gear!

I have been feeling disconnected lately, I don’t know why.  I have to make an effort to connect with friends family etc….I don’t know if it is because I am exhausted or if because I am so disappointed with myself for the weight I have put on and not been able to get off.  I finally caught up with a friend of mine that I hadn’t seen in months until here lately.  It felt good and I missed her.  I just don’t know why I do it….

and now I have done it here on BS, I have distanced myself by giving up the Diamonds.  I don’t hear from most of my fellow team mates anymore and it makes me sad, I know it is part my fault for doing the distancing thing.  I have joined the Wildcats, but I don’t know what my problem is, I still haven’t put my full effort into that either.

 I will get through this I know it…I know it is a bit of a whiny blog, but just felt the need to write it anyway…

life has been crazy….this is our busy time of year.  I have been traveling and not really been computer accessible.  Last week we went to georgia and san francisco and this week we went to A&M and I am just TIRED OUT.  I am going to start exercising again as the weather outside is starting to cool down and the eating is on the mend.  After 1.5 weeks of eating out, I never want to see fast food again.  I think I made decent choices.  I only gained 2 pounds…So I am off and running again.  Just wanted to drop in and say hi….

Miss you all!

I really wonder sometimes.  I continue to buy junk, I continue to eat junk…and keep telling myself tomorrow will be better.  When is it really going to be tomorrow.  I think I am just whiny and pitiful because I was sick this week.  But I looked at myself in the mirror and I just felt like a glob.  So what is it going to take?  I was laid up in bed in extreme pain…for two days…some kind of gas/intestinal thing.  Is that enough or will it blow out of memory just as quickly as it came and I go back to my old habits….

well…the weekend is almost over (i have an extra day tomorrow)….so far..nothing to great on the food front.  I escaped town and went to mom’s and I did the best I could….I didnt gain any weight but I did not excercies and I did not make healthy choices….It will probably show up in the coming days/week….but it was so good to get away to the country for a while….and boy did my dog have a blast!

Wow, I seem to be on a roll with the blogging here lately….Ok, so here is my challenge…I want to see how long I can go without refined sugar.  This is my first challenge to myself.  As soon as I feel I have tackled that one, I am going to attack the next one!  I am counting on all of my buddies to help me in this.  I am bad about picking up crap in my bosses office or a donut or something….So I wonder how long I can do it….

I should have gone to the grocery store last night….I didn’t and as a result of that I had a Sonic toaster sandwich this morning…not dwelling on it…counting it in my points and moving on…

Sorry, I needed to vent a tad here….I really should not have my work email on my blackberry because then I just get emails that irritate me after I have left work for the day…So here is the back story….My company purchased a search on Monster.com….we get to search for one month and we get to view 1500 resumes…so we get all excited thinking we will be able to use them all…the idea was to get the researchers to give us key words and I search and scan in the results for them.  Well we have four labs and only two even pretended to participate.  The one that requested it, came by and actually had some of the researchers do some searching and that looks like it is going to be successful.  Those two folks probably viewed maybe 40 resumes out of 1500.  So I work all this overtime last week to try and capture as many resumes as I can…since we paid like 1800.00 for it…I still only got 800/1500 and it expires tomorrow.  I told my boss at the beginning of this week I was burnt out and had no more keywords left in me.  Only one of the remaining 3 labs supplied keywords…so I asked him how the resumes looked and all he did was bitch….they really weren’t what they were looking for…the links were so slow opening etc, etc….So this has taught me…that if we ever do this again…for this to be successful the researchers are going to have to do their own damn searching….I just feel like my time was wasted.  I know my boss appreciates it….but at the same time I feel like I did it all for nothing..Hopefully the lab that had folks search will be able to use some of the resumes they collected and I know they are at least interviewing folks…..I will get over this….I will…just needed to blog….

So I have been GOOD all week long.  Pretty much stayed within my points…stayed away from the bosses candy jar and have faithfully done my new HIP HOP Abs DVDS three days in a row which is unheard of and I have gained 3-4 pounds…OMG…just a little shocking and depressing.  I will get over it because I know I am doing good things….but damn….

I did my hip hop abs again yesterday in its entirety.  The scale is not being “nice”, but I know it will get past that.  I feel good and that is what matters.  Food has been okay.  I don’t really have much more to share this morning…just working fast and furiously getting ready for recruiting and looking forward to my 4 day weekend !