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Well, at this very moment I am blogging instead of going to the multiple offices with food for going away parties.  Being the last day of the month sometimes we have multiple “quitters” on this day.  So we have two offices full of food that I have been invited to.  I went to one and I have 1/2 a donut.  My fav kind…..I am glad I was able to adhere to that…..Mary Beth also made brownies which are my favorite, and I passed them up.  I have no plans to visit the second office. 

 On the other hand, I feel like crap…..Allergies this time of year always get to me.  I will be okay once I get “used” to it again, but the first wave always hits me hard. 

I am not a very religious person (most of the time)…I keep my faith between me and God, but please pray for all of those folks having financial issues right now, whether caused by the economy or not.  It seems to be hitting me right now, I don’t know if it is because I feel bad or what, but I know several people with problems right now and I just wish I could help them out. 

I just saw a picture of myself from our last recruiting trip and OMG….seriously….I can only think of one other picture or two that I have been that horrified with…..If I can get it from my boss I will…I have got to get this thing in gear!

I have been feeling disconnected lately, I don’t know why.  I have to make an effort to connect with friends family etc….I don’t know if it is because I am exhausted or if because I am so disappointed with myself for the weight I have put on and not been able to get off.  I finally caught up with a friend of mine that I hadn’t seen in months until here lately.  It felt good and I missed her.  I just don’t know why I do it….

and now I have done it here on BS, I have distanced myself by giving up the Diamonds.  I don’t hear from most of my fellow team mates anymore and it makes me sad, I know it is part my fault for doing the distancing thing.  I have joined the Wildcats, but I don’t know what my problem is, I still haven’t put my full effort into that either.

 I will get through this I know it…I know it is a bit of a whiny blog, but just felt the need to write it anyway…

life has been crazy….this is our busy time of year.  I have been traveling and not really been computer accessible.  Last week we went to georgia and san francisco and this week we went to A&M and I am just TIRED OUT.  I am going to start exercising again as the weather outside is starting to cool down and the eating is on the mend.  After 1.5 weeks of eating out, I never want to see fast food again.  I think I made decent choices.  I only gained 2 pounds…So I am off and running again.  Just wanted to drop in and say hi….

Miss you all!

I really wonder sometimes.  I continue to buy junk, I continue to eat junk…and keep telling myself tomorrow will be better.  When is it really going to be tomorrow.  I think I am just whiny and pitiful because I was sick this week.  But I looked at myself in the mirror and I just felt like a glob.  So what is it going to take?  I was laid up in bed in extreme pain…for two days…some kind of gas/intestinal thing.  Is that enough or will it blow out of memory just as quickly as it came and I go back to my old habits….

well…the weekend is almost over (i have an extra day tomorrow)….so far..nothing to great on the food front.  I escaped town and went to mom’s and I did the best I could….I didnt gain any weight but I did not excercies and I did not make healthy choices….It will probably show up in the coming days/week….but it was so good to get away to the country for a while….and boy did my dog have a blast!