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I have discovered I eat way to fast, like a hoover vacuum cleaner…Does anyone else have that problem?  So this is my goal for the week:  SLOW DOWN~~

So last night….I had the funniest feeling.  I was sitting watching TV with my rockstar sister….and I think I finally cracked up about the bankruptcy.  I have one creditor imparticular who is being mean and hateful and nasty but I can’t tell them to cease and desist until I get my case number, so I went and took a post dated check to my lawyer and knowing that they would get the information on Friday just made me giddy.  It is not something that I should be giddy about, I tried to do right by them if  they would only work with me and they wouldn’t…So now it makes me giddy at the fact that they are going to eat it…

Backstory, it is my car, I am 11K upside down….I told them okay, heads up, I am fixing to file, but I can reaffirm the car and keep it, lets make a deal.  First I told them, I want a reduction in the principal, payments and to be caught up with payments beginning in July…mind you that was only one and 1/4 missed payments I had…They wouldn’t hear of it….(me thinks they think I am bluffing)…so next I told them that okay, fine, just consider me caught up on my payments…nope…wouldn’t do that either….so then I said okay, I will do x,y and z to get caught up and that wasn’t good enough either.  So I think I made a diligent effort to resolve this issue and now they are going to eat about 11K when I surrender the vehicle…so I guess it just makes me happy that I am getting out of this pit…..but I like the feeling..I like the laughing, the happiness, the confidence I have felt since turning my papers over to my attorney to get the process started…maybe it just the hormones…I don’t know but I will take it.

I hope all of my buddies are having a good day

Ok, so I went to the doctor earlier this week to get blood work done and see if there was anything wrong with me….The blood work came back fine.  However, I have had hormonal troubles in the past (I like to call him Vincent).  I had a cyst removed about 7 years ago, that I had no idea I had and they couldn’t do it laproscopically so basically I had a CSECTION….so I had to name it :)….So all of that aside, when I came to my new lower paying job about two years ago I stopped taking the birth control I was on and started some cheaper stuff because I just couldn’t afford 40.00/month…so I bit the bullett as I have done in so many areas of my life the last two weeks went to the doctor, got bloodwork done and got my old Birthcontrol back.  I feel better already…He checked for hormonal stuff on the blood work, but I don’t know.  I just feel new and different and ready to go….

Also, and I think I am crazy for telling everyone about this on my blog, I have decided to declare bankruptcy, I know that some folks are of the school of thought that it is a horrible thing and how could I?  I have decided that I am going to live my life.  I have made some mistakes in the past, I have been through debt management programs and I believe I have made a considerable dent in the principal of these credit loans but I just can’t evene make that any more.  I was barely having enough money for gas to get to  work.  Austin is a big city and it is not feasible to ride the bus or walk.   The bus routes in Austin are so screwed up.  I was stressing about taking my dog to the vet and so many other things.  I am stressed now, but it is a good stress and it will be over in a couple of weeks.  Once everything is filed and taken care of.  I am not trying to take the easy way out, I have tried to do the best I could for so many years, I just can’t do it any more.  I want to have money to date…I want to have money to have a “social” life….I want to be able to buy a house someday…..The worst part is the car.  I have a car that I am way upside down on.  The lawyer advises me to get rid of it in the bankruptcy, but I have no guarantee that I will be able to get another one.  I tried to get the bank to “lets make a deal” (I won’t screw you if you help me) but they won’t until I have a case number and have been really nasty since, so I am not sure I even want to deal with them so far.  I have a buddy who is at a car dealership who might be able to hook me up but they need a case number too…..

 So that is what has been going on with me, why I have been absent and half here..that and my internet got cut off…big shocker…..

I am going to start living my life the way I want to and this is how it is gonna be:

1.  First and foremost, Take care of ME

2.  100 Squats daily

3.  100 calf raises daily

4.  Make sure and take my vitamin

5.  20 mins cardio daily

6.  No eating out…

7.  Leg lifts nightly

8.  NO SUGAR…

9.  Water, Water and more Water

10.  Limit extra spending…build a savings account….

Thanks Buddies…seems like I had mouth diahrea (sp?) this morning

Ok, I have gained weight since I joined BS, not the lack of support, I don’t know what it is….so…since my lowest weight….of 175 prob….i have just been one pounding it up to 240…I feel lethargic and gross and just down right nasty.  I have never been thin..but I just DON’T feel good. Went to the doctor on Monday, blood work is NORMAL….so what the HELL is wrong with me….My sister is giving me her “big” clothes now and that is just f*** embarassing….I just don’t feel good.  Sorry for the downer blog buddies….

Hey everyone.  The diamonds have 5 openings…Count them 5…Come one come all…

Below is a list of what it is all about….

Good Morning Diamonds. I am taking a page from the Wildcat playbook this morning and reminding everyone what we are all about. We had a TOTAL weight loss this week of 9.5 pounds for a team of 30 or so people. I am guilty too. I think everyone including myself needs to reassess and re-evaluate what we are doing and what we could be doing better. I have set a personal weight loss goal for June of 10 pounds and an exercise goal of 750 minutes. In the following words, you will find what I expect from myself as team leader and what I expect of everyone on the team. I am not trying to be “bitchy” at all. I just put a lot of work in every weekend and Debbie puts a lot of work into coming up with challenges for us all and I would like to see more of our team on a weekly basis, instead of just at weigh in (if at all)….

I try to send out at least one e-mail or booster each week to all the Diamonds as well as to all of my buddies. Never hesitate to contact me or any other member of the team if you have having a rough time. There are several “seasoned” team members who know the site well and have been around awhile. Never be afraid to lean on anyone for support/advice. Debbie also offers excellent challenges. Some are exercise challenges and some are just “good health guidelines” and some are just fun. You do not have to do them but even focusing on one thing a day can help your weight loss. For example if you are focusing on water, then you are also focusing on not drinking sodas.

We have a forum every week. I start it out by posting a roster and our weight losses for the week. I really would like everyone to post their goals weekly. Currently only a handful do. Also, post these goals somewhere where you will see them each week. On Saturday when you weigh in to me (preferably by email)….go to the forum, post your weight loss/gain for pats on the back or support and then repost your goals for the week and report to us how you did on them. You can even do this daily if it helps you. That is what the forum is for. It is a means for us to communicate struggles and successes with one another. If no one posts, it can not be effective.

If you e-mail me, I will respond. I am usually online at work and at home so usually it is pretty quick.

Now, for what we expect from members. I don’t expect any more from you than I do from myself or than you should expect from yourself. I expect you to do your best!! I have been slacking a little bit lately, but I am a new me as of today and I expect the best from me and from you. Whether you post it or not, you should have a plan for your eating and you should try to stick to it at least 6 days per week. If you don’t have a plan, let us know and we may be able to help you develop one. One of my favorite movie quotes is “If you have no plan, there is not attack and with no attack, there is no victory”….I would also like for you to workout at least 5 days per week if able and try for 6. Make a workout plan. Join the monthly workout challenge. It helps! You will find supporters from all the teams there..

Last, but most importantly, I expect you to show up on time for weigh in every week. If for some reason you are not going to be able to weigh in on a particular week, let me know ahead of time. I know that there may be emergencies or problems that keep us from getting on the computer.. This team is made up of some pretty awesome people who work their butts off and I would definitely like to see us get more wins than we have in the past. We depend on each team member to do his or her part. I plan on doing my part from this moment forward and I expect the same of each of you. It only takes a couple of minutes to send me an e-mail It is a time consuming job to collect weigh ins and even more so to juggle no shows. I have been sending out emails Saturday night to those who have not showed thus far. I should not have to do that and I may not going forward. I will still give two weeks for no shows but I am no longer going to chase them down. They will also just be removed from the roster. I am not going to spend my time emailing them to let them know they are no longer on the team if they don’t have the decency to email me and let me know what is up with them and why they are not weighing in. Again, this is only for the people that give me nothing. They will get nothing in return. Remember, you can always weigh in early if you need to. Also, please don’t “no-show” for weigh-in because you’ve gained weight, or haven’t lost any weight! Weight fluctuations occur regularly, and I/nor your team mates will EVER judge you or make you feel bad about it! We will just continue to support and encourage you to do your very best! We will all have “off” weeks sometimes, but the key is to get back on plan as soon as possible, and the support of your teammates will help you do that!

You get out of Buddyslim and the Challenge what you put into it. Blog, challenge yourself and succeed!

I am glad each and every one of you are on the team! Have a great day! If you have any questions, you can e-mail me anytime. I look forward to the coming weeks as we retune a bit. GO DIAMONDS!!!

At the very least….I expect everyone to log in once a week and weigh in with me or let me know what is going on that would keep you from weighing in….

Thanks!  Email me if you are interested

Ok..I have been a blog “lurker” …I have just not had the energy to comment.  I will get out of this phunk…I just wanted to apologize to all of my buddies….

I can not believe I saw 240 this morning…That is just unexpected and uncalled for.  I know I am not an angel but seriously, this is getting so seriously frustrating

I have always been an early to bed chic…930-10…especially during the week, but now all of a sudden I sleep for like an hour and I am up again…it is so frustrating…laid down about 9 today because the dog is sick and I put her in her kennel because I didn’t want any more accidents put in a movie and tried to fall asleep…slept about an hour..then I was up….went back to sleep for an hour and now I am up AGAIN…so frustrating

Ok Tatiana, like the new pic.  I took a couple of suggestions from the blog and forum yesterday.  I went shopping and bought some new cute clothes.  Yes they are bigger, and yes I will not be wearing them in two months, but I spent $50.00 and got two new outfits.  Just to make me feel better and not so squished in.  I also, went and bought stuff I needed for my house to feel better organized and less chaotic.  So hopefully this will help my current attitude issue.  I did not get done til 11:00 last night so no exercise, but I fully intend on it today!

I don’t know what my glitch is this week, I don’t feel like exercising, I don’t feel like blogging, I don’t feel like commenting…I think I need a huge slap in the face.  Hope everyone else is having a good week!