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First of all, I want to thank all of my buddies for all of the support.  It is so nice to have a place where you are not judged.  I could tell you all that I ate a giant chocolate cake in one sitting by myself (btw, I didn’t)…and you all would say something supportive instead of saying well I knew you would or “you wonder why you are fat”….I am using this analogy because I have another area of my life I am working on and some are not so supportive and it makes me sooo sad.  I am not happy with that particular dimension of my life, but I am doing what I have to do….I am just a little sad this morning.  Love ya all.

This is my new motto.  I totally stress ate today.  I shouldn’t have…don’t know how I could have, my stomach was in knots most of the day….so I am going to list my goals below and blog every night how I did for that day for the whole world to see:

1.  TCOM….take time to be the bestest me I can be.

2.  No junk - nothing sugary, chiplike and the like….Luna bars and goldfish are acceptable

3.  Drink Water. 

4.  Do some kind of toning/stretching exercises daily….commercial squats….calf raises something

5.  Cardio daily

I just need to take control of all aspects of my life, financial, physical and mental.  I am working on it…Slowly but surely.

Ok, so my goal is to start planning my day, every day.  From what I am going to wear, to everything I am going to put into my mouth, to what exercise I plan on doing and for how long.  I think I need this control in my life.  I remember last time I was successful.  I planned my meals on a post it the night before.  I didn’t actually write it in my journal until it was consumed….

I was sooo pround of myself for going to the gym this morning…I did sooo much…i feel very bloated and round tonight….I feel like I just keep going up and up and up…I am cooking instead of eating frozen meals….and nothing is moving…ugh…

Today was fun but took me out of my usual weekend routine.  I had my god daughter over.  Boy is she cute.  We went swimming for a couple of hours, but  I did not make it to the gym because I had to clean the house.  I also ended up eating more than I should, although I insisted it was Chick Fila instead of McDonalds.  I detest McDonalds.  So hopefully tomorrow I will go to the gym on the way out to my mothers.  She will be moving to Waco next weekend and I won’t be able to see her as much because of gas prices.  They are killin me as it is.  To work and back is pretty much it.  My dog is loving all the togetherness we are getting now.  I hope everyone is having an awesome memorial day weekend.

The diamonds weight loss team, has a couple of openings for new members.  We challenge the fanatics, the heartbreakers, the wildcats and the rockstars every week for the weight loss trophy.  We are a support system for each other and it is a way to make amazing friends and buddies.  Email me if you are interested.

Thanks everyone for all of the encouragement today.  I think tonight brough things into perspective for me a little too.  We out to dinner and a movie.  A treat by my boss.  And it is the fun times that life is about…not the struggle, not the food, not the weight….we do what we can but we still can enjoy life and not get so crazy about the scale and such…

 night everyone!

Ok…so I have figured out something and I don’t know yet how my plan of attack for dealing with it.  I wake up every morning with my jaw clenched and it stays that way for most of the day.  I feel anxious.  You would think it was money or job.  Money is tight but I have been through worse…..Work has its moments but for the most part is okay…I have figured out the anxiety…It is dieting…Will I do good today?  Will I cave to my temptations?  Will I exercise?  If I weigh in today, will I lose?  Am I just spinning my wheels?  So this is something I realized this morning.  Like I said…don’t know how I am going to deal with it just yet….

Good Monday morning peeps!  I hope everyone had a good weekend.  It looks like there are tons of blogs to read this morning.  Hopefully I will get to those later.  Nothing exciting going on here.  I feel like I finally have control of my eating again.  There is chocolate cake in the office this morning for our Assistant Directors graduation and I have no desire for it.  I am so happy, I am again to this point.  I hope it continues.  I went to the grocery store this weekend and had no desire to go down the ice cream aisle (could be that I only had $10.00 to my name to get what I needed to get) .  But I am excited.  The scale seems to be moving in the right direction again.  I want to be out of the 230’s by early June, never to see them return.  I also have realized that I don’t have to exercise an HOUR at a time.  This has been very hard for me.  I seem to think that is what it is going to take.  I had a very good workout yesterday and I did 10 mins of this and 10 mins of that with some weights thrown in there.  The QUALITY was so much better that way.  

Peace out!

Hahahaha..I am sorry, I crack myself up sometimes.  So first, you have to know the history of my crazy mom…She was an absolute GWTW enthusiast.  As soon as Lara and I moved to college our room became a shrine to the movie, the walls were mint julep green and all of mom’s plates and collectibles were stored there…so to say this movie is a part of my childhood is an UNDERSTATEMENT.  So I was reading a blog comment.  I believe it was on Lara’s blog from my brother “tomorrow is another day” and that is all I could hear was Scarlett.  So I decided that it would be a good photo for now.  I was tired of the other one and on the other hand with all the work crap going on it also embodied my other sentiment “Frankly, my dear, I don’t give a damn”  :).   I hope everyone is doing well this week.  I actually did get on the treadmill tonight and now I am going to catch up on some things.!